#blogs
A strange realization a moment ago, something that I don't recall ever occurring to me before...
In reading, visiting, drilling through the archives of new-to-me discovered decades-old personal bloggers who are no longer alive yet whose blogs remain online,
I see random "whispers" of whatever ailment ultimately ended their lives in their chronological blog postings.
And ache here, a tummy problem there, some fatigue popping up more frequently, a need for more sudden sleep breaks, or laments of "I should probably see a doctor" or words which mean the same.
This happens overs years, yet with blog archives, I can see them all near instantly.
They didn't even "know" they were sick, until much much much much later.
But it was all there, sorta kinda, in their blogging.
Now self-ish-ly, I think about how I "stopped" sharing the whisper(s) within myself to say "I am tired" and why I thought so at that exact moment;
How I don't post any record of those moments anywhere, online nor on paper notes.
I can't look back to see what I am, or have been missing, health-wise.